Saturday, December 6, 2008

R.I.P Baby Girl...


Ok...so, I have gotten up enough nerve to post the 'dreaded' post I have been putting off for almost a week. My precious baby girl had to be put to sleep this past Monday. Monday, December 1st, 2008 was the worst day of my life. Yes, she was just a dog, but she was my child. No, I dont have children yet, so I have nothing to compare it to, but I do feel like I lost a piece of me on Monday. I have had such a hard week, but I do feel that it is getting a little easier. I have only cried one time today, instead of crying for hours strait (until writing this and post these pictures!). Everything I do reminds me of her. The foods I eat, the blanket I cover up with, going outside, using the bathroom (she would always follow me around), cleaning, washing clothes, etc. I do believe we made the right decision, even though I have second guessed myself hundreds of times and wished we would have waited longer.
A couple of weeks ago, she started acting strange. When we would call her name, she would look the other direction. She would have trouble finding us at times. It progressed from there and we took her to the vet on Wednesday, November 26th. The Vet told us she had probably had a stroke, but it was hard to tell without an MRI. Well, these are like 2500 dollars! This is alot for a 12 year old dog. Once we did the MRI, it would just tell us what was wrong, not fix the problem! Anyway, he gave us steroids for her, but she only got worse over the Thanksgiving break. She started falling down, loosing all coordination she had. She couldnt stand by herself to eat or drink, she would fall over when using the bathroom, etc. My heart slowly broke for 2 weeks. On Monday morning when I got up to take her out, she was really bad. Something had happened during the night and she was completely limp and could not stand up at all. I did not go to work that day. Instead, I layed with her on my chest all morning. We cuddled so much and I thank GOD for those few hours I had left with her. About 12:15 she started having seizures. We rushed her to the vet and had to put her to sleep. This was the hardest decision I have ever made. I did not know I could hurt so bad. The rest of that day and the next few days were HORRIBLE...I just walked and cried. All I can do is think of her and how bad I wish she was here with me. I just want to hold her one more time. I just want to tell her good night one more time. I know GOD only gives us what we can handle and we will get through this tough time. They are GOD's creation, so I belive she is in heaven just having a ball!

Here are some of her last few pictures that I will treasure the rest of my life.

This was her favorite position to be in...Blair was alway so jealous because she would'nt lay like that with him :)


Here she is a few weeks ago...Yes, she layed on our pillow with us...

She was sitting like this for a while a few weeks ago, and I just thought it was a cool picture with the sandicast dog behind her....This dog now sleeps right beside me on the dresser...


Momma loves those sweet cheeks...

This was taken the day at the vet's office one he gave her something to control the seizures...I will never forget that day...

If you have a dog, please, love them extra more because one day, they will not be here for you to love on them...


Little Girl May 4, 1996-Dec 1, 2008
I love you baby girl...everyone misses you so bad. You were a good little girl and we were lucky to have you in our lives for 12 1/2 years. No dog can ever replace you.

9 comments:

leigh anna said...

kari, i've been praying for you, but not really sure exactly what to say, so thank you so much for posting about baby girl. i know this must be so hard for you and blair, so try to stay strong, and i will continue to pray for you, for god to give you peace and understanding

Andrea, Tim, and Julianne said...

I'm so sad for your loss. I couldn't imagine what you're going through. I'll keep you in my prayers.

Lauren said...

I know how you feel Kari. I've lost several pets over the years that we had for a long time and loved dearly. It's so hard because they've become part of the family. I hope each day gets better for you and I will keep you in my prayers.

~Kari AND Blair~ said...

Thank you all of you for your sweet comments...it is getting *easier* with each day...May GOD bless all of you this Christmas season!

Soxy Pirate said...

That's so sad I couldn't finish it. I wouldn't know what to do if anything happened to my Skully Boy.

Like my dad always says, "Dogs are people too!".

Sweet Caroline said...

I'm sorry to hear about baby girl. I know it's so hard because to us they're not just dogs, they're are "kids", part of the family. I hope the days get a little easier for you and I will be thinking about you and the family.

Matt & Mollie said...

Awww... Kari, I'm crying my eyes out! Sorry about little girl, I know ya'll must be so upset! I'll be thinking about ya'll! Love!

Mikal said...

It is so hard to lose a member of the family. I have had you in my thoughts and prayers. I always say there won't be another animal come to our house but then I can't resist.

I believe she is so grateful that you would and could put what she needed before your selfish desires to keep her here any longer. One day we will have an opportunity to renew relationships with loved ones no matter their species.

Anonymous said...

Hey, Beannie, sorry to hear about Little Girl!